What's your crutch?

Everyone has a crutch I think.  Something to get them from day to day when life becomes difficult and, as long as we only use it for support occasionally, that's ok.  The problem comes when we start to rely on that crutch.  Approximately four years ago I gave up alcohol (apart from champagne on Christmas Day which I really think doesn't count) and have been thinking recently that it's such I good job I no longer drink.  My real problem is that I like the taste too much and have an inability to say 'no' when offered another glass.  Unlike most of my friends I find it almost impossible to drink only one glass of wine and, instead, drink until I fall over and then go to sleep.  This is not conducive to a fun night out and gets very wearing for those around me.  Drinking I think also becomes a habit.  I would get home after a stressful day at work and Ash would be waiting with a glass already poured for me.  If it had stopped at that things would have been fine but it seemed a shame not to finish the bottle.  After a really difficult day we'd open a second and then it seemed a shame not to finish that too.  The catalyst was Christmas four years ago.  A night out with friends resulted in me 'losing' the next day and the same thing happened to Boxing Day.  It just disappeared, never to be seen again.  At that point I realised that, although I liked the taste of red wine very, very much, I didn't like the way it made me feel so I stopped, just like that and I've never looked back.  Life has been very stressful recently (an understatement some might feel) and I realised a few nights ago that in a previous life I would have have been drowning in red wine at this point which would have been so unhealthy in so many ways.  I would have slept even more poorly than I am without the alcohol, I would have put on weight, I would have had a permanent headache ............ but I do still need a crutch, everyone does, so what , a friend asked me last week, is mine?  Actually it's this blog, it keeps me focused on the positive, it gives me something to think about (what topic? is the grammar correct?  have I spelt everything properly? the crutch is in the detail and attention I give to it).  So my crutch is the blog, what's yours?

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