Feeling empowered

 Another busy day today inspired, I think, by the sunshine.  As you know I'm quite capable of getting to the end of a day having achieved absolutely nothing, and quite happy with that outcome, but today felt different.  The sun was out, the birds were singing and the world felt altogether lighter so it was obviously a day for 'doing'.  Because I understand myself well I know that I'm very capable of frittering the hours away and today I really didn't want to do that so I wrote myself a list and determined that I would work my way through it crossing jobs off as I did them.  I started with easy things such as emptying the dishwasher, putting the washing machine on etc, included some boring ones such as paperwork and then added a couple of big tasks which would be fun to do, not too difficult and would make an immediate and obvious impact.  The easy things were quickly crossed off, a couple of the boring things were done (although I admit one is on the list for tomorrow) and then, just so I could see where I'd been, I mowed the lawn and cleaned the windows on my bedroom and office/sanctuary.  After all that I finished the day feeling pretty good about myself but then decided to look for something new to put on the walls in my bedroom and soon was lost in the world of decal wall stickers.  I don't know if this happens to you but I begin by looking for something quite specific and, before I know it, I've disappeared down the rabbit hole known as the World Wide Web.  I can tell you now that I was down there a while before I found something I hadn't before considered but which I think will be perfect and suddenly had a thought.  I realised that for the first time in my entire life I could decorate a room completely to suit me; my ideas, my thoughts, my decisions.  Not one other person was involved with the choosing of any of it, a circumstance which was more liberating than you can begin to imagine, and it gave me a glimpse of a future that I really don't think is going to be as intimidating as I first thought.

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