A question ........

 My question today was going to begin with the words 'Do you ever  .......' but the minute I started to type I realised that was the most stupid thing in the world to ask.  Stupid because those words were to be followed by '...........wish you were in a normal relationship?' and I may be wrong here but I can't imagine anyone in this situation not wishing that, at least every so often.  So my question instead is 'how often do you wish you were in a normal relationship?'  Is it every day, once a week, once a month or have you been doing this so long that you've forgotten what a normal relationship looks and feels like so you barely give it a thought?

I ask because I've had an odd sort of day.  Sundays quite often grab me like that because Sundays always seem to be family days and we're not quite a family nowadays but neither am I on my own so not free to do exactly what I want.

I had a lovely morning with friends at the 1940s event.  We wandered around, had coffee, gazed in awe at the outfits and flawless makeup, marvelled at all the equipment on display, watched the dancing, listened to the singing and generally had a lovely time in the sunshine.  All was well in fact until I saw something that Ash would have found fascinating once upon a time, I thought of telling him about it when I got home and then realised instantly that there was no point.  Not only would he not want to know the detail but the fact that I'd had fun would have unsettled him and so was not worth the effort involved in the telling.

That was the point today then when I wished I was in a normal relationship.  One where I could talk with enthusiasm about something I'd done, one where my other half would have loved seeing me so happy, one where I could share an experience and talk about the detail.  I find I don't wish this quite as often as I once did just because life isn't dreadful and the vast majority of the time I accept the situation as it is but every so often I wish I was in a normal relationship.  How about you?

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