The future is looking just a little bit brighter
Do you ever feel this is going to go on for ever and that all your fun is over? This question is for those of you living a dementia affected life but I'm sure there are others living in dark places too who will recognise the feeling. That was me at the beginning of last week. I couldn't see an end to it all and I felt I was losing myself again.
I also have a feeling however that winter had got into my soul. I couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel then but as the week went on my mood improved and I began to look at it all with new eyes. Now we're leaving the dark days of the year behind it feels as though the thoughts in my head are lighter and brighter with just a touch of spring entering into my step.
This morning, for the first time in weeks, I woke with an urge to get up and immediately start my day rather than hugging the covers tighter and hiding from the world and that spoke volumes.
To help me along the way, a few days ago I had an email from 'J' letting me know that there really is life on the other side of dementia. She told me that there are adventures waiting for me and that this won't last forever. I did know that really but to have someone tell me of their own experiences has made all the difference and given me a reason to start planning once again.
I'm sure you know by now how much I love a plan so, with my enthusiasm for life on the rise, I started to plan my future. There are now lists of what I'd like to do over the next few months, lists of what I'd like to do over the next few years and lists of what I'd like to do 'one day'. Not everything on those lists will happen I'm sure but just writing them, starting the research and knowing I have a life to look forward to has made a huge difference to my mindset.
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