A controversial thought

I had the thought this morning that this journey through dementia might get a little easier as we go along.  I can hear some of you take a deep breath at this point and especially those of you already struggling with mobility, feeding, incontinence etc because obviously I don't really know what I'm talking about.  We're not at that point yet and I know that physically Ash is still very fit; he can still walk quite a way, he sleeps just like he used to, his appetite is just as it was but I wondered whether, as those skills diminish, it might be easier emotionally to deal with all of this.  At the moment you see I'm caught between two worlds and one of those worlds often fools me into thinking he's still here.  A quick joke, a smile, a suggestion that shows he's thought about me, all trick me into forgetting just for a short while that he's slowly disappearing from my orbit.  I grab those moments when they happen and then, every single time, I'm disappointed to find all over again that life as I once knew it has gone never to return and that's why I wondered if, just possibly, in some way, this might get easier to deal with as we move along the road.

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